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Walking the walk of conviction about Spirit's support.
As you may have noticed, it has been a little while since my last post...partly due to vacation time this summer, partly because I have been swamped with work, partly due to technical 'issues' with my ISP, and partly that I have been feeling like I am barely capable of doing my own work properly, let alone writing about how I make a success of it for others to read.
Today is feeling no differently, but I have decided to write anyway...perhaps the confidence will come with the words on the screen.
Confidence is a spiritual quality, I think. Some may not agree, feeling that confidence is a simply a belief in one's own abilities...but I think it is a belief in God's abilities. When I correctly attribute my abilities and intelligence, understanding, goodness etc to divine Spirit, this gives me true confidence.
Attributing something to Spirit is an active, ongoing process. It isn't enough for me to know that these things are true once, then just move on. I need to apply it. I need to constantly check my thought to ensure that I am giving that credit to God. Doing this doesn't take away from my own sense of self-worth, but makes me happy to know that God is expressing these wonderful, positive qualities through me...as She does through all of her creation.
So how, you may ask, can I have days where I don't feel this confidence? Well, usually when I am feeling somehow separated from Spirit. I have let fear, worry, confusion or mere busy-ness distract me from focusing on God. And that same fear or worry can make me feel that I am not worthy of being connected to divine Spirit. Then I feel a little lost, and very certain that 'I can't...' which is just horrible.
This is where I need to pray, or work to reconnect with Spirit, and I do this by going over what I know is true about God, Her creation, and me. I know that I really can do nothing 'of myself'..but that everything that is good and true about me is a quality from God. I know that Spirit is constantly communicating good, love and right ideas to me, and that I just need to listen for these things and I will experience them. It is knowing that whatever is trying to convince me that 'I can't...' or confuse me, or distract me, can't be as powerful and real as divine Spirit. When I stop listening to the other thoughts, God's messages come clear.
And then finally, it is walking the walk, you know? Going forward with my day, a project, a phone call etc. knowing that Spirit is helping me to know what I need to do and to say. And I am always so grateful for this knowledge and this newfound confidence. The best part is that I know that this real confidence is eternal, and can't be truly lost, because I am not basing it on things like a great job, a big house, an expensive car, or stunning good looks. (Those who know me, feel free to have your big laugh now.) These things can all be lost or taken away. But spiritual confidence is permanent, and based on Truth. And there is nothing in this world that can argue with that. Read more from this blogger at Discern Daily .
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